Friday, December 30, 2016

Coram Deo

Coram Deo is a phrase, that crystallizes the renaissance period into a microcosm. Literally, it means the "Presence of God" but what it implies is to implement the perfection of God's character into all activity and inactivity. It means living in the presence of God, under the authority of God and to the Glory of God. But how does this shape up for a Christian bombarded with political correctness, deluged by a flood of lust in media, driven by the greed of the prosperity gospel, addicted to the unlimited online freedom and battling the cannibalism in the work environment?

In Isaiah chapter 6, the prophet is suddenly thrown into the presence of God. And reflecting on that passage, these are the spin-offs that jolted my mind:
  1. If we want God's presence in the place we live then that place should be devoid of any defilement. Cleanliness is not merely next to Godliness, it invites God's presence. There should be no physical uncleanliness and no unhygenic trash. And do not blame your indiscipline on lack of time or that you cant help it because its in your nature. Make sure your shoes and socks dont smell. There should be no moral, mental, environmental, domestic or spiritual contamination especially when it is in your power to stay and keep clean. Reflect through Leviticus 16 to understand the implications of cleanliness.
  2. If we want the presence of God, then everything we do, make, write, create etc should carry that mark of quality that epitomizes the character of God.
  3. If we want the presence of God, then our mind, heart, motivations and intentions must be kept unpolluted by everyday (even every moment) retrospection, washing in the Spirit and surrender to God.
  4. If we want the presence of God, then we must ferociously discipline our online behaviour in the frequency, duration and intensity at social media and questionable sites.
  5. If we want the presence of God, then we must be prepared for the terror of being confronted with absolutes of all absolutes (Isa 6), and without this we may never comprehend what it means to be in his presence or what it cost God to make this possible.
New Year, is just around the corner. If we want our time on earth to be fruitful, then we must practice Coram Deo in its fullest implications. Happy New Year to you all. May 2017 be a blessing from God, a blessing to you and a blessing to others.

Thursday, December 29, 2016

Calvinism

Take the whole populace and decimate to a dozen
The Elect are the snobs whom God has chosen;
The rest are groomed
To a destiny that is doomed,
Where many are cold and a few are frozen.

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

Greed Breed Phylogenetics

Tormentors, are more common than mentors. They are the products of an evolutionary jump. These X-men are classified taxonomically as Homo cannibalis. They are stratospheric by ego, and statuspheric in language. Those who hold apex positions have been separately classified into two vigorous species called the Chairmanosaurus rex and the Velociraptor treasurorus. These are essentially septuagenarian and superannuated and cannot leave their chairs they hold. They have a covenant commitment with the chairs they hold called -- "Till-death-do-us-part."
     The males have the Saul-syndrome dominant allele found in the X Chromosome. And in women, who usurp the administrative control of their husbands, this allele produces the Jezebelase enzyme. This was first detected in the DNA analysis of the archaeological remains of an ancient breed of Saluki dogs. It was great puzzle to many of the scientists at that time as to how human DNA could have been found in the intestinal villi of these dogs. But collateral research in the Ancient Near East showed it to be the smashed remains of the wife of Ahab (2 Kings 9: 30 - 37). However, the gene that produces the Jezebelase enzyme is now more prolifically found in the urban zones today. The enzyme gives them superior skills in the science of shift-and-lift and swipe-and-hype (1 Kings 21).
     Now at the end of a dog's day, when you are dog tired it might be easy to say that the world has gone to dogs. But, its refreshing to know that are still processes and counter-currents that aim to make a healing difference. There is the Christian Business Mentor's Connection who work to mentor and bring healthy Biblical values into the marketplace. And then there is also the Mentor-link an organization that aims to provide a mentoring process of accountablity and spiritual growth among christian leaders.
     When they succeed in creating a new generation of leaders then there is sure to be hope. One thing is sure however, you cant teach an old dog new tricks.

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Asylum

Visiting an asylum can be a penetrating experience. To listen to the different stories that pushed these people to an unrelenting wall. The prolific Zen teacher, Thich Nhat Hahn, made this remark “to love, without knowing how to love, wounds the person we love.” And this asylum reeked of the wounds left behind because of love.

They were left behind without being allowed to understand what happened and even why. Those who did not care left behind an emotional trauma that marred the psyche of the despondent forever. All they were given in cruel parting was ready-made cliches, glib answers and a leprous distance to justify the exercise of toxicity on the vulnerable. The broken and lost were left with the single choice of only functioning on autopilot. They have not "moved on" but they are forever frozen. In that frozen state only one thing remains like a painting on wall that never changes - "all the bridges have been burnt." And this is the only painting that remains, in a wall that is fully blank and grey. And in a room that has no windows, where no voices can be heard. Ever.

If they live would they have anyone to tell the tale? And when they die, would they ever have lived?

Friday, April 8, 2016

Selfie-tudes, solitudes and the new beatitudes

Social constructs, traditional values and institutional ethics have gone through metamorphic change. Its a get-what-you-can, while-you-can and whenever-you-can world! Essentially its a dog-eat-dog world and the turbid amplification of the chaos theory (assuming that order comes out of disorder).

In this selfie obsessed world, it is not merely about hogging the limelight in your own photos. Its about self-centredness elevated to the status of a moral principle and as an inalienable, fundamental, right! As a result these are the contra-distinctive beatitudes for all the selfie focussed fledglings and dinosaurs:

  1. Blessed are the pushy in spirit, for they shall worm their way into councils and boards until death do them part.
  2. Blessed are those who gloat with laughter, for they seek comfort in profiting by harming others.
  3. Blessed are the arrogant, for they know how to inherit real-estate by encroaching and selling others property.
  4. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for crookedness, for they shall fill their bellies with worms that will never die.
  5. Blessed are the vengeful, who create fake-encounters and invent prima facie evidence, for they shall live by the sword and die by the sword.
  6. Blessed are the impure in heart, for they are busy with social network apps and at online social sites.
  7. Blessed are the trouble-makers, for they know how to fatten themselves legally at institutional expense.
  8. Blessed are those who get elected to lofty offices for theirs is the kingdoms of this world.
  9. Blessed are you when people flatter you, laugh at your unlaughable jokes and when they kowtow to you because of your office. Rejoice and be glad for great is your reward in hell, for in the same way they applauded all the prophets profiteers before you.

Friday, November 20, 2015

Embedded Love

A commitment is a voluntarily embedded resolution, deep into the psyche of the mind. This commitment can be to a person, an ideal or even a nation. It is love in its fullness, and it never erodes easily.

Commitment to a person can mean another human being or God. One of the most beautiful stories of commitment is between David and Jonathan in their trusting and sacrificial friendship. Another painful and wrenching story in the Bible is between Hosea and his wandering wife Gomer. It was theology through experience, and it became a metaphor for rebel Israel.

In Hosea's story, after Gomer deserted him he would never have gone back to redeem her. She was dirty, defiled, compromised,untouchable and unworthy. The bridges had all been burnt beyond repair. The hurt was deep, death was dear and pain inconsolable. Was redemption even thinkable?

And yet when he discovers her abject slavery, her intense punishment and vulnerable brokenness he sets out to redeem her. She had love but he had commitment. Her love evaporated when she found the emotional high of a new relationship and then plunged with vertigo into an emotional low of slavery and dehumanization. But for Hosea even when the love was lost, the commitment never eroded. So he makes the painful and costly journey to restore her back to wholeness.

In truth, all this was only the long journey on cobbled streets to a broken cross and, in the words of the Latin Hymn:
How pale thou art in anguish
With sore abuse and scorn!
How does that visage languish
Which once was bright as morn.

What thou my Lord hast suffered
Was all for sinners gain;
Mine, mine was the transgression,
But thine the deadly pain!*
It was not the journey of Hosea but of Christ, for all of mankind. And that love and commitment is embodied, embedded and emboldened in that bleeding Cross. And it shows the true meaning of commitment. It shows how to be redeemed and how to be like the redeemer.

*"O Sacred Head, Now Wounded" is a Christian Passion hymn based on a Latin text written during the Middle Ages. J.W. Alexander's version in 1830, originally, contains 11 stanzas.

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

The Lost Pilgrim’s Progress

The lighthouse at night is beautiful to see, but it is absolutely forbidding as a destination. In fact, it is never a destination. It is an odd place for a journey to end, since lighthouses mark those regions of the coast that are most dangerous for ships to come ashore.


However, there are those few who determine to journey towards it as a last desperate bid for land. After tortuous months in doldrums, cold nights of abandonment in an empty ocean with nary a bird to see,  blistering sunlight of the day and water everywhere but nothing to drink… now the glimpse of the bright lighthouse in the dark and the promise of land ahead is a vision for sore eyes.

For the land starved pilgrim the mere glimpse of a light house fills him with brimming hope, in vision and in his heart. It means there would be people to talk to. It means food, water and a future. So, for this desperate pilgrim the lighthouse becomes his destination. It is no more a lighthouse. It becomes the lighthouse, an unforgettable landmark in the journey of his life; a testimony to future generations; a witness of surviving odds; a beacon of resurrection and hope. But this desperate bid to move towards the lighthouse is a one way journey. It is fraught with all kinds of perilous and mortal dangers, of unpredictable rocks, of undercurrent eddies and of currents too strong for feeble hands. The movement is not simple but erratic and zigzag with uncooperative waves, powerful undercurrents and bewildered efforts.

This journey is never easy for the lost pilgrim. Any movement towards the future is swept backward by a groundswell of the black memories. The undercurrents of past failures and the guilt hijack the efforts sideways. Circumstantial events jut like sharp rocks in a swirling sea to break you at any moment. The eddies of injuries and insults tug you downward. How can this lone boat ever make it? Yet if hope is real, then he must move towards it even if death and destruction are imminent. At all costs, he throws his hopes feverishly on God almighty and paddles with enormous strength using his weakened arms. He knows he can’t take it anymore. He cannot survive another maddening day floundering in his lonely boat. So he sets his mind to the singular goal of reaching the lighthouse, with all the energy he can muster. “If I perish, I perish” (Esther 4: 16), lights his feverish mind, and the futility of efforts never faze him.. And so he labours to reach the only salvation now available to him. It’s the lighthouse. And it’s his only hope. It is never a destination for anyone else. But it is a destination for him. It’s the lighthouse.



A broken and contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. 
Psalm 51: 17

But we have this treasure in jars of clay 
to show that this all surpassing power 
is from God and not from us.
II Corinthians 4: 7 

Friday, August 7, 2015

Layers of History in the Land of Israel (Part II)

Aerial view of Tel Beit She'an looking west towards the Jezreel Valley
Beit She'an is an ideal metaphor to understand, literally, the layers of archaeological history.

The "deep cut" on Tell el-Hisn ("castle hill"), in 1933 by archaeologist G.M. FitzGerald, showed that the earliest occupation of the site began as early as 5000 BC. Occupation continued intermittently up to 3200–3000 BC, according to pottery finds. Canaanite graves dating from 2000 to 1600 BC were discovered there in 1926. It was called Scythopolis during Greek occupation and a large cemetery on the northern Mound was in use from the Bronze Age to Byzantine times. It is first mentioned in the Bible in Joshua 17: 11-12 and Judges 1: 27. Traveling through these layers and strata of occupation show, not just, a change in culture and customs but also language. Beit She'an matches the layers of history in the land of Israel. For avid history buffs, visiting Beit She'an would be a visual experience in understanding the layers of history and culture that shaped the entire land of Israel.

For those, who have not yet had this opportunity, here is an outline of the layers of history and culture in the land of Palestine, that I promised in my previous post. The headings marked in red, indicate periods covering the texts of the Bible.

Mesopotamian Migration (2125 to 1700 BC):
The books of Genesis and Job belong to this period. The language is an ancient form of Hebrew, more closely related to Ugaritic. Hebrew is a derivative of Phoenician Ugaritic. Ugarit employed a 29 character cuneiform alphabet. In fact, there are archaic words in Genesis & Job found only once in the entire Bible and scholars have struggled to translate it. This is the time when Abraham traveled from the land between the rivers (Tigris and Euphrates), planning to settle along the Levantine coast of Canaan.

The migrations from the Tigris and Euphrates region into the land of Canaan are well recorded in the Tel el Amarna letters. These were letters of complaint about the "Hapiru" to the Egyptian Pharoah, Amenhotep III and his son, Amenhotep IV asking for help and intervention. This is also the first reference to the Hebrews (Hapiru) outside the Bible. Of course, the Hapiru, is used in these texts as a much broader term including various Semitic people of the Mesopotamian region.

Cuneiform clay tablets discovered at Mari and Nuzi throw enormous light on passages like Genesis 15: 2 (adoption), Gen 15: 8-18 (Suzerain-Vassal Treaty) and Genesis 31: 17-35 (Laban's costly chase for a small Teraphim), Gen 12: 11-20 & 20: 1-18 (Sisterhood) etc. Even the early chapters in Genesis are better understood when studied in contradistinction with the Atrahasis and the Gilgamesh Epic of the Chaldeans. Many names, including Abram and Benjamin are not Jewish names but originally Mesopotamian names, found on Sumerian clay tablets as Abamram and Banuyamin.

Egyptian Settlement and Slavery (1700-1447 BC):
Jacob and his sons migrate to Egypt because of a famine and settle in the land of Goshen under the patronage of Joseph (Gen 37-50). After Joseph's death the political climate changes and for almost 400 years the Israelites were slaves to Egyptians, Their redemption and national history begins with the arrival of Moses. The Torah or the Pentateuch was initially compiled during his time. And as a result they are called as the books of Moses.

You will notice the Egyptian customs, in the renaming of Joseph (Gen 41: 45) and the funeral rites of Jacob (Gen 50).

Exodus and Settlement in Palestine (1447-722 BC):
God intervenes through Moses delivering the Children of Israel through mighty acts from Egypt and leading them up to the promised land. Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy were recorded and compiled in this era. Joshua then takes over the Leadership from Moses and leads the nation in a conquest of Canaan. This was followed by Judges, and the Monarchy under Saul, David and Solomon (I Samuel, II Samuel). However, Solomon's period also marked the beginning of Apostasy (I Kings 11: 4-8) and it got amplified with the division of the Kingdom (I Kings 12). Various prophets attempted to address the double detriment of apostasy & social injustice (Isaiah, Micah, Hosea, Amos). But the people failed to listen. Finally in 722 BC Samaria fell to the Assyrian Empire. And northern Israel vanished as a people. The Assyrians displaced other people from far away lands and re-settled them in Samaria. They brought with them the baggage of their own religion and syncretized it with Jewish faith (I Kings 17: 24-33). They eventually became known as the Samaritans.

Neo-Assyrian Subjugation (722-609 BC):
At this time the Assyrian Empire destroyed the northern kingdom of Israel in 722 BC and annexed the southern kingdom of Judah as a vassal state paying huge tributes. Sennacherib the Assyrian Emperor, threatens Jerusalem with a siege (Isaiah 37), but could not complete it. In 609 BC Babylon defeats Assryria at the battle of Haran and finally Assyria ceases to have anymore significance in history. The book of Nahum describes the barbaric brutality of the Assyrians and pronounces their doom.

Neo-Babylonian Exile (597-539 BC):
The apostasy that took place in the North also affected Judah in the South. Many more prophets did their best to wean them out heresy. They warned them of judgment through Babylon. Prophets like Habakkuk raised the issues of ethics, of using Babylon as an instrument for this purpose. Jeremiah warns of the impending doom and the hollowness of their "Temple Theology" (Jer 7). In the end judgment comes in three phases. First in 597 BC (Jer 52: 28), then in 587 BC (Jer 52: 29) when Jerusalem is razed into ground zero and finally a last deportation of exiles in 582 BC (Jer 52: 30). During this time the book of Lamentations was penned by Jeremiah. And in exile the books of Ezekiel and Daniel were written. However, Babylon was defeated by Cyrus the Great and the growing Medo-Persian Empire in 539 BC. Nabonidus was the Babylonian emperor at that time. He had settled in the desert oasis of Teima to follow his own pursuits, and is often referred to as the world's first archaeologist. He left his son Belshazzar, as the Regent and proxy ruler in Babylon. This was the time Babylon was defeated and its demise is described in Daniel 5, as the writing on the wall.

Medo-Persian Period (539-330 BC):
Cyrus the Great who founded the empire is also well-known for his Edict of Restoration (Ezra 1) which has been called the first charter on human rights and preserved in the Cyrus Cylinder. He was responsible for the emancipation of the slaves including the Jewish exiles in Babylon. The lives of these Jews in the diaspora is well described in the Murashu Cuneiform texts. The Persians had their capital in Ecbatana and in Susa, at different periods. Cyrus died around December 530 BC and was succeeded by his son Cambyses II, who immediately killed his brother Smerdis (Bardiya). He then went to the eastern front and captured Egypt just before he died in 522 BC. He was succeeded by an imposter, Gaumata, calling himself Smerdis. After only seven months he was killed by Darius the Great, the grandson of Arsames. In 536 - 534, Darius the Mede, although not a King of the empire, received the kingdom of Babylon as viceroy from Cyrus when he was 62 years old (Daniel 5: 31).

Following him was Xerxes, the son of Darius and the husband of the Hebrew queen Esther. He stopped an Egyptian revolt in his first year. Around 484 BC, he also destroyed the Babylonian temples and took the statue of Marduk (Bel) and killed the priest that tried to stop him. He was followed by the reign of Artaxerxes I, the benevolent Emperor, whom we find mentioned in Ezra 7.

As the Jews try to rebuild Jerusalem (Books of Nehemiah and Ezra), they faced stiff opposition especially from the Samaritans. The Elephantine Papyri, discovered in Egypt near Aswan, names Delaiah and Shelemaiah as the sons of Sanballat. Sanballat is described as the governor of Samaria, and who in the book of Nehemiah opposes him at every turn (Neh 2: 10, 19). Relationships between the Samaritans and Jews as a result worsened, and hostility becomes historically entrenched (Neh 2: 20). This hostility spills cruelly into the New Testament period (John 4: 9), and its seen in the reaction of the Jews to Jesus' story of the Good Samaritan.

In the end, the Medo-Persian empire was overtaken by Alexander the Great and his Macedonian army in 333 BC.

Greek Period (333-30 BC):
Xenophon (once a pupil of Socrates) writes in his famous book Anabasis, how the Greeks were hired as mercenaries by a claimant to the Persian throne, to wage war against the recognized king. The story records how the Greeks learned through the mercenary experience that the Persian Empire was internally weak and could be challenged militarily. The story may have inspired Philip of Macedon to believe that a lean and disciplined Hellene army might be relied upon to defeat a Persian army many times its size.

The first great clash between Persia and Greece occurred about 410 B.C., at the Battle of Marathon (the ram and he-goat, predicted in Dan 8). This is where the marathon race originated.

Before the Greeks conquered Persia, Darius III assembled the largest army ever created to try and stop the progress of the Greeks (over 1,000,000 men from 40 different nations). He was still defeated by Alexander, who had no money and only 35,000 men, in the Battle of Arbela. The Greeks, under the leadership of Alexander the Great, defeat Persian armies in Macedonia in 333 BC. This marks the fall of the Medo-Persian Empire and the rise of the Hellenism.

After Alexander's death in 323 BC the empire got divided into four parts under his generals. The Diadochi, as the successors of Alexanders were called, struggled bitterly for power over his domain. Two of those Generals  Seleucus & Ptolemy took over the Levant and Egypt. Daniel 11 refers to these conflicts between the "king of the South" and the "king of the North".

The Seleucids controlled Babylonia, central Anatolia, Persia, the Levant, Mesopotamia, and what is now Kuwait, Afghanistan, Pakistan, Turkmenistan and northwest parts of India. They ruled till 63 BC when they were defeated by Rome, that now emerged as a new empire. It is during period that Antiochus IV Epiphanes (175-164 BC) sacrificed a sow on the altar in Jerusalem, and is predicted in Daniel as the abomination that causes desolation (Daniel 11: 31). This led to the Maccabean revolt of the Jews and the formation of the Hasmonean dynasty.

The Ptolemaic dynasty ruled Egypt until they were overthrown by Rome in 30 BC.  Cleopatra VII, of this dynasty, was known for her role in the Roman political battles between Julius Caesar and Pompey, and later between Octavian and Mark Antony. Her apparent suicide at the conquest by Rome marked the end of Ptolemaic rule in Egypt. This was the last dynasty to rule Egypt.

This was also the period in between the Testaments, it was a time of political chaos and Hellenistic diffusion. The Sadducees, though from priestly line, were only interested in the consolidation of political power at all costs and paid no attention to the values of Jewish faith. In reaction, the sect of the Pharisees arose who determined to maintain Mishnaic purity. In contradistinction to both, the Essenoi instead retreated to desert places to maintain the purity of scriptures and lead a separated and austere lifetstyle. They devoted themselves to copying  and keeping accurate records of their scripture.

It is important remember that the Greek that Alexander spoke was originally Attic Greek, not Ionian, Doric or Homeric (classical). However, as Hellenism spread, this Greek upon mingling with other parts of the empire, over a period of time became Koine Greek. This Koine Greek is the language in which the New Testament is written.

The Roman Empire / New Testament Period
Rome began its expansion shortly after the Republic was founded in the 6th century BC, though it didn't expand outside Italy until the 3rd century BC. It was thus an "empire" long before it had an Emperors. When it subjugated the Greek empire and annexed all its territories, Palestine too came under its control. In 27 BC the Senate and People of Rome made Octavian princeps ("first citizen") with proconsular imperium, thus beginning the Principate (the first epoch of Roman imperial history, usually dated from 27 BC to AD 284), and gave him the name Augustus ("the venerated"). Though the old constitutional machinery remained in place, Augustus came to predominate it. (In another blog I shall explain the social system that Augustus capitalized on to become the first citizen, and this social system is critically important for understanding the culture during the New Testament).

However, even though Rome defeated Greece it could not over-power the influence of Hellenism. Therefore Koine Greek remained the lingua franca for the whole empire even though Latin was the official language. The influence of Greek philosophy, their sciences still have their impact on modern science. How else would we know about the Archimedes principle or the Pythagoras theorem or Eucildean mathematics? Even about 80% of the technical words in medicine, science, psychology, biology and technology come from the Greek language.

This was the framework of the New Testament, of Jesus and his disciples, and all the epistles and books written at this time.

Rome's unique contribution was the Pax Romana and the Roman roads. Pax Romana ensured stability, security, prosperity and fair justice to all. This led to a vox populi of the deification of Rome, embodied in Roma, the goddess. Eventually, this deification was transmuted into a deification of the emperor. Some emperors tolerated it, others like Caligula revelled in it. Caligula, however, was a megalomaniac who insisted on divine honours. But what can be more dangerous than a madman? It would be a sane emperor insisting on divine honours - and this was Domitian. It was during the period of Domitian, that John was exiled to the island of Patmos where the last book in the New Testament was written.

The whole empire was networked by an efficient system of Roman roads. Therefore, the trident of  Roman roads, the Pax Romana and the Koine Greek played a critical role in the wide dispersal of the Gospel. Eventually after Constantine, Christianity graduated from a persecuted faith to a State religion!

In Israel the Jews, however, resented Roman presence. There were groups such as the Zealots and Sicarii who wanted to overthrow foreign rule on their homeland. These Jewish nationalists captured the fortress of Masada in 66 AD from the Romans (the fortress was originally built by King Herod to protect himself against Cleopatra). In order to stop this uprising revolt, Vespasian, the emperor led an assault on Israel and the Qumran Community was razed in 68 AD. The people of Qumran managed to hide all their precious scrolls, sealed tight in ceremonial jars, in the desert caves (these were accidentally discovered in 1947). In 70 AD, Jerusalem was utterly devastated and the Temple destroyed, by General Titus. And in 73 AD the Jewish stronghold at the fortress of Masada, lay under siege. When Romans overpowered they discovered that they, along with their families, committed suicide rather than surrender to the Romans. Of the 900 people present there only 2 women and 5 children survived. The last of the Jewish resistance, the Bar Kokhba revolt (132-136 AD), and the sad story at the Cave of Horrors (Nahal Hever), resulted in an extensive depopulation of Judean Jewish communities. Despite easing persecution of Jews following Hadrian's death in 138 AD, the Romans barred Jews from Jerusalem, except for attendance in Tisha B'Av. According to Cassius Dio's Roman History, 580,000 Jewish civilians were massacred, and those who survived were sold into slavery. The Jews were now a displaced people, scattered permanently, away from their own homeland.

Byzantine Period (313-638 AD):
After Constantine was converted to Christianity in 313 AD, the edict of Constantine provided protection for the Christian community. It was not just safe to be a Christian, but prospective. Constantine’s mother, Helena, with her personal and official resources at her disposal, identified and constructed, churches at all the important Christian sites. Some of which can be still seen today in the land of Israel.

In 395 AD, the Roman Empire divided into Eastern and Western halves. The Eastern part was ruled from Byzantium (renamed Constantinople, now called Istanbul). Palestine remained a province of this empire for 350 years. In the later years the Jews were persecuted and some were converted.

Islamic Occupation (638- 1098 AD)
If the land of Israel wasn’t convoluted enough with its complex history, a new religion now rises! In 610 AD, Mohammed, in the Arabian city of Mecca receives messages from God. Mohammed’s unique gift was in bringing together the disparate Bedouin tribes into a monolithic force, under the common factor of Islam, which means submission to God. In 638 AD Caliph Omar plus his desert troops get into Jerusalem, capturing it without a single drop of blood being shed. The Temple was declared an Islamic holy site. After the Jerusalem Temple was destroyed in 70 AD by the Romans it was never rebuilt. The Dome of the Rock was built in its place between 689 – 691 AD. And until 1967 no non-Muslim was allowed to enter. Since 1967, permission to enter the Dome of the Rock is maintained by the Ministry of Awkaf, Amman, Jordan. Non-Muslims are now permitted to enter but they forbidden to pray.

The region remained under Islamic hand for the next 400 years, until acts of cruelty against Christian pilgrims provoked the Roman Catholic Crusades.

Crusader Period (1091-1259 AD):
The Crusades were a series of military campaigns sanctioned by the Catholic Church in the Middle Ages. Pope Urban II initiated the First Crusade in 1091 AD with the stated goal of restoring Christian access to the Holy Land leading to an intermittent 200-year struggle. In 1099 AD, the Crusaders (drawn from many European countries) conquered Jerusalem and brutally butchered the Jews and the Muslims living there. Palestine was renamed as the Latin Kingdom of Jerusalem. The Dome of the Rock was converted into a Christian Church, and the Church of the Holy Sepulchre was rebuilt.

Mameluke Period (1260 -1516 AD):
For a brief period from 1260 AD the Mameluke Sultanate of Egypt took control of Palestine. This was as reasonably peaceful period in the history of this land. The Sultan demolished Jerusalem’s few remaining walls and initiated a lot of building work. Jerusalem now became a centre of Islamic learning.

Ottoman Empire (1517-1917 AD):
The Ottoman Empire, also called as the Turkish empire, was founded in 1299 by Oghuz Turks under Osman I in northwestern Anatolia. The Ottoman sultanate was transformed into a transcontinental empire with conquests in the Balkans between 1362 and 1389. They overthrew the Byzantine Empire with the conquest of Constantinople in 1453 AD, renaming it as Istanbul. During the 16th and 17th centuries, in particular at the height of its power under the reign of Suleiman the Magnificent, the Ottoman Empire was a powerful multinational, multilingual empire controlling much of Southeast Europe, Western Asia, the Caucasus, North Africa, and the Horn of Africa.

Sultan Suleiman, the Magnificient, defeated the Mameluke Sultanate of Egypt in 1517, and Palestine now came under his control. He soon set about major rebuilding projects in Jerusalem. He installed the walls and gates which can still be seen around the Old City.

Over a period of time, the empire got gradually weakened, and Jerusalem became a neglected outpost. Slowly the exiled Jewish people, started to return to Palestine. During this period, in the 1890s the movement of Zionism was born, under the leadership of Theodore Herzl, an Austro-Hungarian Jew. The central aim of Zionism was to restore the lands of the Bible to the Jewish people.

British Mandate (1917-1948):
In 1917 the British General Allenby entered Jerusalem through the Jaffa Gate, and the Turkish Empire lost its hold in this region permanently. Under the British Mandate (recognized by the League of Nations) the British acted as a caretaker government between 1917 to 1948.

State of Israel (1948 onwards):
On 15th May 1948, the British withdrew their caretaker government and Israel became an independent state and homeland of the Jewish people. There is still much tension there between Palestinians (Christian & Arab) and Jews due to the complexity of the way in which the British withdrew and the nation was formed. The Palestinians claim that they have dwelt there for 2000 years since the Roman times, while the Jews claim it as their original homeland. It is not comfortable to dwell on the right and wrong of these issues. All that we need to do is to pray for the peace of Jerusalem.

Layers of History in the Land of Israel (Part I)

Hattusas, Capital of the Hittite Empire and the Oldest civilization
The hunt for truth is deep core both to those who believe and to those who are still seeking. At its very heart is the urgency to validate what you believe or disbelieve.

Here, shown on the left is Hattusas, the capital of the Hittite Civilization, the oldest known Empire. Ezekiel's polemic invective underlines the origin of the Jews to these Hittites (Ezekiel 16: 1-3).

Now, tracing the dawn of history that connects with Abraham (Gen 5 & 11), the journeys of the Patriarchs, the formation of the 12 tribes, the spiritual vacillation in the time of Judges, followed by the Monarchy and the subsequent divided kingdoms of Judah & Israel in the Old Testament is to discover that it is pock-marked with the pot-holes of different cultures and history. Negotiating through these cultures, their languages, prevalent customs, taboos and myths play a critical role in understanding how the Bible texts differed or resonated from other texts written during the same periods. Some thick books are entirely devoted to this subject, and vast volumes of technical journals are available. In fact it is impossible to properly understand some sections of the Old Testament, without a parity assessment with extra-Biblical sources and archaeological discoveries.  And all this is irrevocably connected with available documentation in the ancient written records. Technically, it is impossible to escape the fact that the Bible is a historical document.

The most ancient written records were in various forms as inscriptions on clay tablets, pots (ostraca), papyri and parchment. The earliest was Anatolian as seen in the form of logophonetic Luwian Hieroglyphs, discovered at Hattusas (near present day Boghazkoy in Turkey). Actual writing, not hieroglyphs, is seen in the Sumerian texts (Southern Mesopotamia) dating between 3500 – 3000 BC. It arose from long distance communication necessitated by trade. The exception is Enheduanna, the Akkadian poet (2285-2250 BC). She is the world’s first author known by name and was the daughter of Sargon of Akkad (Sargon the Great). Interestingly, the British archaeologist Sir Leonard Wooley found the now-famous Enheduanna calcite disc in his excavations at the Sumerian site of Ur, in 1927, which was also the city of Abraham (Gen 12).  It was Sumerian mathematicians, who devised the sixty-minute hour that still rules our lives. Of course, there is also the well known Hammurabi’s Code of Law and it is dated at 1754 BC.

Both the Luwian texts and Hittite texts are part of the Indo-European group of languages, based on the evidence in historical linguistics. As a result they are considered as precursors to English, German, Sanskrit, Hindi, Bengali, Gujarati etc.

James Pritchard’s “Ancient Near Eastern Texts” is an exhaustive, technical and archaeological compendium of all the early texts of this region. Originally printed in 1969, it is now updated and available in its III edition. However, today much of this information is easily verifiable and available on the internet. So here I provide just a brief outline of the slices of Israel's history and also provide some clues to trace further data on extra-biblical sources. Some recent books of great value provide geographical information that is chronologically arranged and updated with archaeological discoveries:
  • William Schlegel, Satellite Bible Atlas: Historical Geography of the Bible
  • Anson F. Rainey & R. Steven Notley, A Sacred Bridge: Carta’s Atlas of the Biblical World
Thus, the whole the history of the Levant can be sliced into the following categories up to the present. These slices outline only periods of occupation and control in Palestine, and not the actual periods of their power globally:
  1. Mesopotamian Migration (2125 to 1700 BC)
  2. Egyptian Settlement and Slavery (1700-1447 BC)
  3. Exodus and Settlement in Palestine (1407-722 BC)
  4. Neo-Assyrian Period (722-609 BC)
  5. Neo-Babylonian Exile (597-539 BC)
  6. Medo-Persian Period (539-330 BC)
  7. Greek Period (333-30 BC)
  8. The Roman Period (30 BC-313 AD)
  9. Byzantine Period (313-638 AD)
  10. Islamic Occupation (638- 1098 AD)
  11. Crusader Period (1091-1259 AD)
  12. Mameluke Period (1260 -1516 AD)
  13. Ottoman Empire (1517-1917 AD)
  14. British Mandate (1917-1948)
  15. Statehood of Independent Israel (Since 1948)

I will continue with more detail in my next blog on each of these sections. The first 8 sections cover the ground in which the texts of the Bible were written.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Greatness

An ordinary man will draw a circle around himself, and only look out for himself in all matters: it is essentially a selfie obsessed world. A good man will draw a circle around himself and keep his wife and children secure from any harm. A better man will draw a larger circle, and care for all those who are part of his tribe and language. But men with great destiny will draw a circle so large, that people from all tribes, and castes, and languages are part of his grand design.

So how large is your circle? How keen is your vision? And how great is your destiny?

Remember Jesus stretched out his hands in a circle so large, that he died nailed to a cross. As disciples, lets take up our cross and follow him. Lets also make our circles as large as we can.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Look Before You Cook

This picture was taken sometime back at Ivan and Chandra's place when I made the dinner: Deep fried whole fish (after marination with salt and lemon), layered first with cinnamon powder and then a tablespoon of honey before serving. Pineapple slices browned in a little oil. Potato wedges and shredded cabbage in cheese sauce.

So, here out of my humble culinary experiences of trying to continue to belong to the land of living are a few simple kitchen tips for those in the regular ambit of this zone. But please do not stew over this for too long even if it whets your appetite for more. In the end I don't want to mince any words, when I leave some food for thought and I hope I can let these ideas simmer (even as you forgive my puns):
  1. Unknown to many people is that the vanilla essence can be used for many functional purposes besides flavouring desserts. For example, after you have cleaned the fridge wipe the insides of the fridge with a cloth soaked in vanilla essence. This removes all the bad odours from from the fridge. Also if your room has a bad smell, just put a few drops onto your table lamp bulb, and switch it on. It wipe out all bad odours and fills the room with a pleasant smell of something freshly baked.
  2. Before grating cheese smear a little oil onto the grater. This prevents the cheese from sticking to the grater.
  3. If ghee turns rancid, heat ghee in a frying pan and fry some 15-20 pods of garlic till they become brown. Remove the garlic and store the ghee in a container, and let it cool.
  4. To prevent biryani from sticking to the bottom of the pan and getting burnt, spread a layer of bay leaves at the bottom before layering it with rice and meat and spices to cook.
  5. To make karela (bitter gourd) less bitter slice them in half and rub them with wheat flour and salt and set aside for at least half an hour. Wash thoroughly before cooking them.
  6. While bottling jam, soak parchment paper in vinegar, place it inside cap before closing the bottle. This will prevent the formation of mold
  7. To remove oil stain in a non-stick pan (usually after prolonged use of the vessel), boil together three cups of water, one table-spoon bleaching powder, one table-spoon of vinegar and one table-spoon  of salt in the non stick pan for 5 to 8 minutes. Scrub gently and wash with soap as usual.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Denying the Self

I list just a few mechanisms, gained in my own spiritual sojourn through life, failure and obedience. But even when I am obeying God in all areas of my life I have learnt that the capacity for obedience is not there within me. And this is the only thing that continues to keep me humble, human, sensitive and less judgmental of others.



Certainly the act of self-denial, though multiform, varies from individual to individual. And each of us must chart out our own road-map and inspection points along the way to make sure we amplify God, especially during those times when his will comes into conflict with ours.

So, here are a few directly personal observations on how to deny the self. You might either resonate with them, you may differ or you may glean something from them:
  • When you forgive and pay the cost for forgiving and let the offender go unpunished - you deny yourself.
  • When you refuse to turn stone into bread and refuse the oppurtunity to satisfy your legitimate needs - you deny yourself.
  • When you take all you have, like the widow of Zarephath (1 Kings 17), and give it to meet the need of a servant of God - you deny yourself.
  • When you refuse to take another person's vulnerable moment and convert it into an advantage for yourself - you deny yourself.
  • When you refuse to use any political mileage to subdue your enemies - you deny yourself.
  • When you refuse to feel morally superior and reject the inclination to gossip - you deny yourself.
  • When you live with unanswered prayer and still will not let go of your trust in God - you deny yourself.
  • When you set time apart, no matter how pressing or urgent the need, for God each day - you deny yourself.
  • When you refuse to let your feelings overcome your sense of scriptural rightness - you deny yourself.
  • When you refuse to let your eyes to wander with unhealthy desires - you deny yourself.
It is paradoxically true that whenever you deny yourself in any form, and at any time, the reward that God gives us is disproportionately greater than our self-denial. In the end you will realize that you have made no sacrifice, but God did. For no one can ever make any sacrifice greater than God. God, is no man's debtor. So, let us cheerfully deny ourselves, take up our cross and follow Him.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Internal Audit

I have been judged and found guilty of the very things I have judged others of. This is critical. Without this realization I could never understand how much I am a product of grace. Without this intense internal reflection I could never understand what it means to forgive others as God forgives me... Everyone has to die someday. I wish mine were sooner, so that I would be spared from making more mistakes.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

7 Habits of Highly Defective People

The only curse of being a prophet is being under judgment from those who are under the judgment of God. So, here are a few observations from an image obsessed world.

These are observations about defective people. They seem to be the only people capable of worming themselves to apex positions! They have the right appearance, right words, right connections even right credentials but its all cosmetic. Here is what we can learn from them in this dog eat dog world:


1. Fire From Somebody's Shoulder:
Always fire a gun from somebody else's shoulder. In this way when things go wrong you have a fall guy and when things go right you can snatch the credit. Always keep a scapegoat ready for every circumstance preemptively.

2. Divide and rule:
Continue the historical legacy of the British East India Company on Indian soil. Only thing is that you do this now with your own Indian brothers and sisters. It doesn't matter if your organization or institution buckles: your coffers should bloat from both sides and no one should notice how you are siphoning institutional money. Siphoned finances should be used carefully for buying people. Those who cannot be bought with money buy them with institutional perks, promotions or with nothing more than public accolades! In simple language, have no allegiances except to your own self.

3. Build Facades:

Cover your personal insecurities by boasting and inflating yourself with lies or exaggerations. Reinforce this by surrounding yourself with sycophants of mediocre calibre and low-grade intelligence -- they will simply parrot whatever you tell them. At the Board level fawn with the right people, right gifts and right subservience so that nobody pays attention to your mismanagement. Build facades and brand position yourself so that your unproductive mediocre activities look like Machiavellian flourishes. Of course, it will be detrimental to the institution but it will be lucrative for you. After all, apna kaam banta, bhad mey jaaye janta!

4. Elevate Mediocrity:
Elevate mediocre people to positions where they are incompetent. Target those who are exceptionally good at work and are worthy for promotion. Sideline such people. Use their sincerity to get work done and take credit. Swipe and hype, especially when you lack originality. And if things go wrong shuffle blame. Fill your organization or institution with yes-men. Terminate questioners. Remember end justifies means, as long as the end is yourself and the means is other people. Essentially, celebrate and reward mediocrity.

5. Self-deify:
Be obsessed with self-importance. Never tolerate even the slightest slight on you or your coterie or family, even if it is accidental. React with swift viciousness on the offenders. Cow everybody to submission. Put down people to constantly show how superior you are (even if you are not, and especially if you are not).

6. Be Eternal:
Fudge your birth records. Find out mechanisms and means to continue receiving your pay cheques even after superannuation. Create or modify rules and bye-laws for this purpose. Start a new branch for your company which is promising but unproductive (it all lies in the packaging). In simple words, never retire. Make sure there is no expiry date on your service or age. Become a Patron or the President Emeritus or any self-deifying title to continue receiving a sizable honorarium or perks or benefits and also to continue meddling with the company.

7. Pendulum Behaviour:

Always make decisions out of pride or out of panic. Never put your organization or the welfare of others in the fore-front. Constantly make decisions that boost your pride and inflate your ego. When things go wrong and out of control then make decisions out of panic. Consult a million people in panic. Take their million suggestions, and implement a decision that will amplify your own detriment. In this way you can come down as fast as you went up.


​"Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom ​or the strong man boast of his strength ​or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this: ​that he understands and knows me, ​that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, ​justice and righteousness on earth, ​for in these I delight."
Jeremiah 9: 23-24

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Why no one should gloat

No one in this world is without emotional baggage.

We carry it around with us like an invisible back-pack. All our failures, all our insecurities, all our injuries, all our shame that has been a result of what others have done, what we have done and what circumstances have done. As grudges keep multiplying, the fresh injuries are added into that back-pack. The older we get the heavier it becomes and its weight cuts painfully into our shoulders. And unlike the Pilgrim in John Bunyan's allegory we have never learnt to lay it at the foot of the Cross.

So when something bad happens to someone who has been the instrument of our injuries, we gloat. A satisfaction that he got what he deserved. He got a taste of his own medicine. He is reaping what he has sown. But it is wrong. It is wrong for many reasons. Here are my 10 reasons why we should not gloat:
  1. We do not know all the just reasons behind a person's crisis
  2. We do not understand the justice of God fully to remark on what God is doing and why
  3. We should not show contempt on someone who is now in need of mercy
  4. We reveal our own vindictive immaturity when we gloat on another's fall
  5. We do not yet carry the full image-likeness of Christ to understand God's holy acts of judgement
  6. We cannot pervert the justice of God to narrow-mindedly think it was done for our benefit
  7. I am myself under judgement for my failures, so how can I gloat on another when I too need mercy?
  8. Gloating itself is an act of vengeance arising out of our warped insecurities
  9. Gloating is not a part of God's character in being holy
  10. The Bible commands us not to gloat (Proverbs 24: 17-18, 28-29; 25: 21-22)

Let me close, with the prayer of an orthodox Jew each night: "I hereby forgive anyone who has angered me or provoked me or sinned against me physically or financially or by failing to give me due respect, or in any other matter relating to me involuntarily or willingly, inadvertantly or deliberately, whether in word or deed: let no one incur punishment because of me." *

*J.Sacks, The Koren Sidenur, Koren 2009, page 294

Friday, November 14, 2014

Prodigal's Prayer



Forgive me O Lord,
I know that I have not suffered enough
for all my sins against you and the others.
Yet Lord, if I suffered for all of them,
I would not survive.

The burden of my disobedience,
which I have foolishly justified
in doing, bears heavily on me.
It saps my will, my hope, my strength
and even sometimes my sanity.

I have nowhere to go,
but to the one whom I have
offended the most.
So I come to you
without any grain of merit,
even to whisper a prayer.
But the longing is keen
in my soul.

So have mercy on me.
I know I cannot deserve mercy,
yet Lord, I ask because
it is in your character
to be merciful.
I cling, because a humble
and contrite spirit you will
in no wise cast out.

Let me feel again, the refreshing
showers of mercy to quench
the thirst in my parched soul.
Cover me with your favour
and let your protection blanket me;
let every word that I speak
be only those that the Spirit unctions.
And Master, King, Creator
and my beloved redeemer
hold my hand forever.
For I do not have the strength
or the wisdom to hold yours.
Let every thought of my mind
be in constant surrender to you.

In Jesus Christ my Lord.
Amen.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Black Thoughts

The problem with pain
is that it strikes again and again.

The value of a good deed
is that no one ever takes heed.

A person full of lies,
makes others to sacrifice.

Sin packs a walloping goad,
like a carcinoma in galloping mode.

When the eyes have no tears to part,
They corrode and bleed from the heart.

The marvelous measure of grace,
can only be from a sacrifice that stays.

No one can lessen the volume of grief
especially when it involves a thief.

The exponential magnitude of sin
is proportional to the
disproportionate ingratitude within.

The true mark of wisdom,
is in total allegiance
to the eternal Kingdom.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

A Tribute

The souls we have, are made of the love we have shared and the love we have lost; of the friends we have made, of the friends who have stayed and the friends who have strayed. We carry these shards forever within as vignettes of inconsolable peace, honed by an eternal forgiveness displayed on the Cross. The anger and pain is channeled into laughter redolent with pathos, or into a satire to sharpen the truth or into a parable directed to a few. Even as it finds expression, no one can see the shadow beneath.

Every time we see death or pain in others it becomes an echo of our own. We grieve with those who grieve, and even die with those who die. The experience is vicarious.

This existential trauma, is the journey of those irremovable shards as they snake their way inexorably to the gulag of an already brittle heart. When that tryst of the shards and the heart is complete, the pilgrimage on earth is done.

May God bless and receive Robin Williams. He has found his peace, and I must wait for mine.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

The Safest

The safest thing is to be by yourself. In that way you learn from your mistakes by yourself. No one else will know anything about it. Cool isn't it?

The safest place is in God's will. His protection surrounds you. It may be the worst place on earth but his will surrounds you. Its where God has sent you. Its where God will keep you safe from every harm. Its the safest place. Don't choose any other place.

The safest people are those God has chosen; those whom God has called; those whom God has sent. They have no ostentation, they are a people by themselves. Composed. Unaffected by the winds of each age. For even if they are human and make mistakes like everybody else, God's favour surrounds them; His security envelops them; His presence immerses them. Those who bless them will be blessed and those who curse them will be cursed (Gen 12: 3).

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Prayer

Prayer is not words. Its not flowery language. It is not King James Version. It is groans. It is unspoken words. It is the lament of a soul. It is sincerity. It is the longings, whether expressed or sighed. It is what God listens to. Real prayer does not need words. It is heart communicating to heart (Psalm 42: 7).

What words did Hannah use when she struggled in anguish? Read I Samuel 1: 13

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Blood-Curse

A blood-curse is a voluntary invitation of judgment. It always arises from the arrogance and violence of assumed righteousness. It precipitates into injury on the innocent. It is visible in the lament of Jesus over the blood of prophets (Matt 23: 37). It is cacaphonic in the cry of the persecuted (Rev 6: 9).

A classical example would be the trial of Jesus before Pilate. Pilate's wife tells him, "leave that innocent man alone. I suffered a terrible nightmare about him last night" (Matt 26: 19 NLT). Further into the trial when Pilate fails to mollify the rancid Jewish stampede he capitulates and remarks, "I am innocent of this man's blood. The responsibility is yours" (Matt 26: 24 NLT). The Jewish Sanhedrin, priests and people roar, "His blood be on us and our children" (Mat 26: 25 KJV). It is a blood-curse: a self-invitation of judgment. And the pogroms in history testify how many times it happened, from nation to nation.

A blood-curse happens when in self-righteousness, unjustified anger, vicious vengeance and warped morality we hedge an innocent person. We hound him. We leave him desolate (Jer 20: 1-2), when he was God-sent to heal and transform. It happens, when you reiterate your wrong as right and rabidly silence the innocent person.

A blood-curse is dangerous because it travels through generations. Never engage in a blood-curse.

There is, however, one possible way to overcome a blood-curse. One possible way to overcome the unnecessary bloodshed of the innocent. Read through 2 Samuel 21.

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Curse-Free

Life is hard. It is replete with injuries, insults, violence, injustice and, worst of all, betrayals. The worst evils are those when the offender acts like the victim (even though no cost is paid). At such times it seems for those offended to shower curses and redress the wrong, but then it is never good to curse. Why should we not curse? Well, these are my reasons:

  1. We retain our moral integrity, by refusing to curse.
  2. When you curse, you let the devil into your life to dilute your obedience.
  3. When you curse, you give the devil the opportunity to control your life thorough the curses others have made on you.
  4. When you curse, it gives the devil a hook to amplify the curses through your ancestors.
  5. To curse is not your responsibility but God's. Check Genesis 12.
  6. If you curse man today, you might end up cursing God tomorrow. So, don't make cursing into a habit.
  7. No curse can chase you, when you never curse anyone. So peace always dwells in the conscience even though all hell is unleashed.
  8. Vengeance can never enter your heart, when you never curse.

However, there are many psalms of an imprecatory nature (Psalm 35, 69 and 109 are the most intense ). These are psalms of extreme anguish. They are framed culturally in an Old Testament context and theology - of expecting justice with a pure heart. It is the delirium of conscience produced by a famine of justice. As a result they have prophetic bent and for which reason they are placed in the canon of scripture. It would be pure arrogance to assume that they validate our whims to curse.

The branch with the heaviest fruits, always hangs low. Humility and fruitbearing go together. A humble person cannot think of cursing another. So, leave the method of justice to God and the timing of vindication to God.

Of course, the most effective way to remove a curse is death. No curse can lay a claim when you are dead. To die physically is indeed a beautiful solution, but what God wants for us is to die to the world and to die to the self.

Therefore, at some point, the hate must stop. The curses should vanish. The conscience clean, and God pleased.

Saturday, April 26, 2014

The Subterranean Fog

Betrayal always slithers noiselessly like a slug coating the poison of its slime into a relationship, without warning: the viscid unrelenting gel permeates deep into the recesses of the subconscious. There it cakes morbidly unwashable. When you trace the trajectory of betrayal through time you find each preceding event frozen in tandem, into vignettes of daggers carefully planned. Even simple words like "very good" can be ominously portentous. This comes with the rending foreknowledge that no remedy will come, not in days, nor months, nor years. There will be questions but no answers. There will be comprehension but no prayers. There may be grief but no tears. There will be comfort for others, but none within. And in the end when one part of you dies the other parts usually follow, for even a lion wounded in the heart will soon have to die.

Yet for your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered
Psalm 44: 22 and Romans 8: 36
Just exploring the dimensions of pathological gloom in other writers such as Edgar Allan Poe, William Cowper, William Styron, Randall Jarrell, Albert Camus, Romain Gary, Primo Levi, Abraham Lincoln and activist Abbie Hoffman.
 

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Carrying the Cross

To carry the Cross, simply means to carry all the injuries on the body and psyche indelibly for forgiving all those who offend. How much ever they offend. The pain may never go but you live with a comprehended peace. The wounds may never heal, because the penalty is entirely borne by the one who forgives, so that the offender goes scot-free. Apart from understanding the Cross and subsequently carrying the Cross, there is no healing for humankind.

Finally, let no one cause me trouble, for I bear on my body the marks of Jesus. (Galatians 6: 17)

Monday, April 14, 2014

The Prodigal

At some point reality hits your head like sledgehammer and everything sharpens acutely into focus. You exorcise the pretensions.You flush down the grandiose dreams. You fade out all fantasies and demolish the castles in the air. You hit rock bottom and settle down to brass-tacks... but they are like rusted metal struts clawing an ashen sky at ground zero. There's nothing you want. There's nothing anyone can give. There's nothing to ask. There's nothing to keep and, even, nothing to give. After all, what would you do with corn-cobs? So, downbeat you take the long trudge home. You know that there can't be a welcome. Just, maybe, a place to eke out... till the last ebbs of life slide away. And gazing at the approaching Good Friday, the foot of that bleeding cross seems to be the only vestige of hope in a world gone parched. There under a darkened sky and a crumpled form on a cursed tree lay the only hope for all humankind.

Saturday, February 1, 2014

When No Prayer Is Left

A mother gives birth to a child. She forgets all the pains she went through and looks at the wonder of her own creation – the joyful bundle and symbol of intimacy. She continues her sacrifice in suffering and in raising the child in her values, her aspirations, her dreams and makes him in her image. But the day he reaches dignified heights and looks at his mother as a gargoyle, misshapen by years of sacrifice, that day the broken mother knows the irrevocable pain of being a creator who lost creation.

A wife finds her husband missing and she may run from police station, to Church, to deliverance meeting but no one can assuage her loss. No amount of years will ever quench the questions that rage in her mind. She put her life in him. She shaped him. To lose him was to lose the home that was created. Only she understands the emptiness of the creator losing his creation.

A husband, who builds his wife, invests in her. He instils a unity of values. He envelops her with a language until she becomes him in tastes, in choice of diction, in knowledge and even in mannerisms. To lose her is to lose what he created. And the creator suffers not merely because of abandonment but because the creation has been mercilessly defiled. Hosea knew what a costly message he was called to communicate (Hosea 3: 1). Samson knew what a loss of allegiance means (Judges 13: 18) and he suffered even when she was judged (Judges 15: 1-6).

Then imagine the God who created us, against whom we have rebelled. He has redeemed us but we have wantonly rebelled and by repeated choice we have crucified him a second time. All right, not a second time but probably a millionth time. Look at him hanging on the cross. Look at the nails we pushed firmly into place. Look at the face we battered and matted with blood. Look at how we lacerated his back and left it hanging in shreds – all for the precious things we were unwilling to forgo. The extremity of such a desolation and intense grief is that there are no more tears left to run and there no more prayers left, even to utter "my God, my God why have you forsaken me" (Ps 22:1, Mt 27:46). The only silent whisper that remains in the end is, "It is finished" (Jn 19: 30).